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Name: Claudia
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| To be honest, i've officially lost all motivation to study for next week's paper. and yes, i'm in a rather screwed position. I tried to get back momentum. In fact, i figured that the house was too un-conducive for any productive studying to be done, that i headed down to starbucks to study. Starbucks was more vacant than usual. most of the people had already completed their exams. So yeah., at the mere sight of only a few muggers, i kinda lost motivation to study. Miraculously, i managed to cover quite a bit ytd. But that did not last. When i found out my mom was heading for some private Sale in town, i could not resist the temptation, and thus, trotted my way down to town and began shopping.
Today was worse. i didn't even consider nor made any decision to study. I woke up with intense muscle aches from ytd's morning workout, and was no longer in the right state to go for my morning jog. so i sat myself infront of my laptop for approximately 5hours straight to catch up with 90210 season2. I only managed to stop when i realised i have yet to get shoes for Prom. so yea, another shopping spree with dearest mom. .
A while ago, i was still planning to complete Poe tonight. but after typing this entry, my eyelids are falling asleep on me. and once again, futile attempt to study. i know there's no point ranting about how useless i am. i know i neeeeeed to start studying noww. but reallyyy, i think i need zhiwei to push me to studyy. ahhhh, zhiwei lee.. help meeeeee )):
i'd better sit myself down at starbucks tmr.
on another note, last night was by far one of the greatest, most honest, and longest conv i had with colin in quite a while. i really appreciate your honesty, and i'm glad we were able to resolve certain issues, without ending off in a fit of anger etc.
oh and before i log off, i would like to post this song which i've been in love with for the longest, but always forget to post it. its an OST from the movie, Once.
Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard
I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along
 
 
wakahikihu
that's all for now. night guys.
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| I've never felt as liberated as i am right now, for the past year.
fish&co
   
eversince friday, i've been shopping, eating, hanging out, waking up after 7am (: not forgetting, ive been able to catch up with my gg season3 and 90210 season2. also, i've been baking. in fact, it was my first attempt in chocolate mousse last evening, and although the chocolate made the mousse too bitter, i was glad that the texture came out just right.
   
ytd morning had me meeting lindsley at 8am over at Macritchie. our initial plan of "morning run" failed on us terribly as it was raining. despite that, we still took stroll into macritchie, under the light drizzle. afterwhich, we decided to head down to the botanics for breakfast. got there, the foodcourt was under renovation. so that left us taking pictures around botanical gardens. it was truly wonderfully to be there in the light drizzle and taking nice pictures with my friend. times like these are truly worth holding on. thanks lindsley for the wonderful morning. we shall do this every year when u come back from nz! i can't wait t see you guys later! (:
Since my holidays have kinda already started (except of the last paper in dec3rd), i came up with a list of stuff that i reallyy wanna do to make this period worthwhile and enriching.
Firstly, maybe a banking job would suffice my extravagant spending habits? yea, mom thinks i should be earning my own income proper (swirl wasnt counted, i was still given pocket money), and gain experience in all professions.
Secondly, try baking regularly as i'm in the midst of some plans etc. not gonna reveal what it is, but yeah, BAKE BAKE BAKE.
Third, COOK. abide to Julie&Julia motivation. start cooking!!! and honestly, it's kinda getting into my "book of passion". been reading a lot of recipes lately, and would really wanna start making meals for my family and friends when my family actually allows me to handle the fire on my own.
Fourth, Take up Yoga and Maybe kick-boxing? or Rugby? or some sort. i feel its an experience to always try out new stuff. Also, Photography as a side passion (: Oh, did i mention, i was at Balestier with my family to get some figurine ornament or so from this shop, and i was brought to this super ancient Bakery. the bread is soft and really, really, good. also, i cant help but took some really cool pictures of the estate.
   
Fifth, start exercising regularly. i realised that eversince i started devoting all my time to Studying and neglected exercising, i lost all stamina i could possibly have. on Saturday, a jog to Macritchie, followed by some 30sit-ups, 20 leg lifts and logs nearly killed me. In the past, i had the strength to do more. It's like, i've aged so terribly over the 2mth duration. this sucks.
Sixth, DRIVINGGG.
Seventh, READ READ READ. at least threeeee books. i'm not much of a reader myself so i'm trying to force myself to start reading, and hopefully, be able to have the patience and endurance to complete at least three books. if i can do it for lit, i can do it for this! (:
Eighth, jam and record with colin (:
the above is in non-random order. so yeah. hopefully i'll have time to do allll of these. and the motivation to persevere! okay, i gtg study for lit now. till then! OHHH, AND YES, I CUT MY HAIR. not exactly to my liking though. but like what my friend said, "HAIR WILL GROW CLAUD". so yeah, go me, live with bad hair for a few months! whee. so eggciting.
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Some reasons why i love studying at Starbucks.
1.Coffee's perfectly brewed
2.Beautiful Music and Setting
3.Friendly and Spontaneous Staffs
4.Conducive for productive studying
with that said, A's in approximately a week's time.
gdbye world.
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| so much have been going on for the past week, i feel like a bottle that is ready to explode anytime. what if one day that really happens? i fear for that day to come.
i realised that it isnt easy to always put on a smile on my face, even at times when i simply do not feel like it. it's this facade at times, that is driving me to near insanity. on the surface, everything looks calm., but has anyone been able to explore the within? where everything's just a mess in disguise. lately, i've been studying hard and trying to ignore all that's been going on around me. honestly, it's been a futile attempt. on one hand, i'm trying my darnest to concentrate, on the other, there're these insensitive, inconsiderate people, stressing you out as if the stressload isnt enough for me.
i ask why, some people can selfishly say "you don't know how stressed i am", oblivious to the situation of the other party. everyone seems to be too self-absorbed that they fail to take a step back to see the agony some people are facing. understand that it's not always, me, myself and i.
some of these insensitivity can hurt. some of these selfish act can drive you insane. but at the end of the day, what one really need is a Friend. a Friend who is there listening, advising. a Friend who's not only there to share your woes, but also to share the happiness one experiences. a Friend is someone who strives all out to sympathise with you, and may even go to all extent to cheer you on.
sometimes, it can be extremely hard to confide in your family about certain issues, and here's when our Friend becomes our shoulder, our listening ear, our comfort, our Wall. i need a wall. i need to confide. last night, i was on the verge of going insane. but thanks to d, i felt much much better..
dear readers, i sincerely hope you guys are able to find your Friend someday. for some of you, you may have already found one, do treasure them. honestly, like how one of my Friend once said, "you can have a lot of friends. but there's only a handful or maybe even one, whom you can truly rely on". and i'm glad i've already found some. .
once again to d, thanks for everything.
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